Own Your Weirdness

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Are you experiencing feelings of doubt about who you really are? You’ve reached a point in your life when you thought you should have it all figured out, but you’re feeling unfulfilled because you know there must be more. But you don’t know what it is. Or maybe you do but you’re afraid of it.

 In other words you are waking up!

 This can have you feeling like you’re going crazy because suddenly your family and friends don’t understand you. Conversations with them result in frustration because you want to have deep and meaningful interactions, but everything is surface level. They’re talking about sports, the weather, the latest movie they watched, gossiping about other people while you sit there wondering how you ever found them interesting.

 This usually follows a period of inner exploration on what your true purpose really is in this lifetime. You may have discovered aspects of yourself that you didn’t realise existed, you may be finally acknowledging talents and gifts that you’d suppressed thinking they wouldn’t be accepted. You have a new path to follow but struggle to feel like you fit in anywhere.

 The trouble is that you’re afraid. Stepping outside the mainstream is scary because you don’t know what’s on the other side. A thousand doubts flood your mind, anything from “will I be able to support myself if I take on a new venture?” to “what if I lose all my friends?” to “is this real or just my ego tricking me into believing I’m capable of doing something great?”

 There could be past life or childhood traumas playing out in the subconscious that are preventing you from being who you want to be, but you’re not aware of them.

 You develop an internal battle between wanting to be mainstream and conforming to what you’ve always been comfortable with before, and wanting to be unique by taking a risk and breaking free of the shackles that are holding you back from having your dream life.

 It seems like everywhere you go, everyone else is normal except for you, but are they really? Look a little deeper and see if they are honestly happy? Sure they may appear to have success and stability in the eyes of society’s expectations, but are they just following the rules because they don’t know any other way? Do you think if they thought they had a choice, they would do things differently? 

 There are basically two kinds of people. The ones who follow the rules and the rebels.

 You may think it’s the rebels who break free from the system and create change. While that’s often true, I think change can just as easily be created by people who’ve always followed the rules. Let’s examine this.

 In my experience I was always one for following the rules and constantly sought approval to make sure I wasn’t doing the wrong thing. I realise now that I did this intuitively knowing that there was something inside me greater and more powerful than I could handle, and wasn’t ready to unleash it on the world, or even believe it was possible. So I always did what was expected of me because I feared the alternative. However, I soon learned you can’t do this forever because that inner calling is the reason you’re here. So you set about creating change in a loving way, using a softer approach that people would be more likely to accept.

 Then there are the rule breakers. I used to judge them, probably because deep down I wanted to be like them but didn’t have the courage. Rule breakers are the creative ones, the people who question everything and don’t accept what they don’t believe in. They come up with the big ideas and commit to implementing them at all costs because they believe so much in what they’re doing. They tell it how it is, offer tough love and they know that in order to create change, you have to bypass the systems.

 So you see, everyone is capable of being who they are and making a difference.

 The most empowering thing anyone ever said to me when I was going through my self-awareness crisis was “you’re not broken”. For a long time people thought I was weird because I was fascinated with exploring past lives, visiting psychic mediums, I believed in karma and manifestation, in fact loved everything alternative. These concepts are more accepted now because more people are being exposed to them and are finding answers to their big questions. This is because people like me have owned their weirdness and come out of the spiritual closet to teach others what they know. 

 It was during a pivotal time of my inner journey that I found myself at a seminar surrounded by other people like me, and knew this was my tribe. We were asked to consider that perhaps we were the gifted ones who were sane while everyone else living within their programming was insane. This was a huge moment for me. For the first time in my life I didn’t feel so alone and it was certainly the point when I realised that I deserved to be seen and heard. 

 I learned you don’t have to be a ground-breaking entrepreneur to make a difference in the world. We’re all here to play our part, no matter how small, using our gifts to contribute to the collective. You don’t always know where you fit in, but it doesn’t matter, just follow your path and it will be perfect. 

 The universe has your back. If it doesn’t seem to then perhaps you’ve gone off track. All you need to do is follow your intuition and stop listening to that annoying ego voice in your head. Seek out your tribe because they’re waiting to embrace you for who you are. You will speak to them soul to soul because you’re energetically connected and you will experience a far more meaningful connection than with the friends you’ve lost interest in. Don’t feel guilty about that either. It’s just growth. We all change so it’s only natural that some people fall away. Just let them go with love to discover their own path.

 Transcend the ego, draw on past life wisdom and future life direction in order to make an impact in the present. It’s all there inside you. Owning who you are and letting others see it is empowering for you and for them. Be the change you want to see in the world and you’ll encourage others to do the same.